PILOT SPIN
Spin Zone => Spin Zone => Topic started by: Rush on November 16, 2024, 10:26:46 AM
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I sorta would’ve liked to celebrate with her.
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Having health issues that truly suck the joy out of life. Two small ulcers and stomach inflammation. Small bland meals through the day and no eating after 3:00 p.m. So no dinner with my husband. And no taste or smell. Sharing meals with people is a huge joy and is restorative. Lost that. No joy. No coffee, no alcohol, and oh …. Dr. wants an MRI of a liver cyst which I can’t get until December. Who knows what then … she mentioned “a liver surgeon.” I want to die.
At present I am missing my mother-in-law’s memorial service today and getting to be with family because I can’t travel. So I’m home by myself feeling like every day is like the movie Groundhog Day. It never ends. Prepare little meal, eat it, ad infinitum. I have stomach pain (which is what took me to the Dr., plus heartburn) and normal aging pains and can’t even get comfortable sitting or lying down. Sleep is elusive.
I hurt, there’s no comfort or joy, I don’t seem to be making any progress even with the acid reducer. I am afraid all the time and my nerves are shot. And my 97-year-old Mom whom I adore still needs me, but I can barely keep myself going. Have lost 30 pounds since a year ago, eight of those in the last three weeks. I want to die. Especially since I blame myself for worrying for years and doing this to my body. And yes, I’m a person of faith but I’m exhausted. It’s an exaggeration to say my life feels like Job and Jonah rolled into one, but it feels like scorched earth to me, or hardening to steel in a fiery crucible. One wonders what next.
I was glad President Trump won but need a miracle of my own. I just don’t see an end to this. Will report back if there is any good news.
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Wow Becky. I know everyone on this board will be praying for you (to whoever they worship).
My sister was having chest pains and went to the ER. They could not determine anything so they gave her heartburn medicine and sent her for an MRI.
The MRI turned up a spot on her pancreas that needed further evaluation. This is just a few years after our brother died of pancreatic cancer. It took her two weeks to make an appointment for a special (endoscopic) ultrasound, but that appointment was 6 weeks away. (Thanks Obamacare).
She was scared to death for 8 weeks thinking she was going to die like our brother.
Finally the day came for her testing. Another week of terror as she awaited results.
Finally she got the all-clear. The spot was nothing to worry about. (I still don't know what it was though).
I tell you this to give you encouragement to hope for the best. Modern medicine and drugs are true miracles. This is why doctors make so much and drugs cost so much, yet some people want to take that away from us.
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Becky, sorry to hear this. Will add you to my prayer list for sure. Not knowing is difficult for sure.
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Gosh Becky, I am so sorry! Health problems do suck all the joy out of life. I had suspected maybe you weren’t feeling well, especially after the whole hand ordeal. I have chronic stomach inflammation but not ulcers. My pain isn’t bad enough to give up coffee, yet. They’ve put me on acid blockers but I don’t think they do anything. I’ve had two endoscopies for it and both times they said yep, your esophagus is inflamed and you have “gastritis”. But it’s not nearly as bad as yours sounds, I’m glad you’re getting it checked out.
But all the regular aches and pains of aging seem to be happening more and more frequently and piling up, and I hate it! I got tendonitis in my thumb and thought it would never get better. I use my hands for everything and it made everything painful, was quite disabling. Took several months of babying it and finally it seems to be getting better.
But with all the little things, life is okay right now knock on wood. But at one point in the past I was where you are, I had minor surgery on my right hand and got a horrible complication where my entire arm became disabled, turned cold and blue, and lost all muscle mass, and was extremely painful. I actually became suicidal. Physical health problems are the ONLY thing that can make me that depressed. Yes, if you don’t feel well physically, nothing else matters. But with the right medical treatment it got better, took two years but it did. I’m really hoping the same for you too! Well, not that it will take two years, hope you get better a lot faster!
Will be praying and sending warm thoughts your way! ❤️
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What Rush said.
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Becky, that is sad to hear.
Hoping for the best for you.
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Prayers being said for you Becky. Sorry you’re going thru this.
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I’m so sorry about this, Becky. You have our prayers. I understand worry. (Having had the big C 13 years ago, every little ailment in my mind is cancer until proven otherwise. It’s irrational but it’s also debilitating.).
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Prayers to you, Becky! And more to everyone here suffering from health problems.
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Prayers to you, Becky! And more to everyone here suffering from health problems.
Sooner or later it’s going to be all of us eventually, unless we go out young in a quick accident. When you see old people moving around slowly, with walkers and stuff, they’re usually in pain. This occurred to me recently, because I started getting some of the arthritis. Some they can fix, like the hip replacement, but some they can’t, like the arthritis in my sacroiliac joint, and knuckles. My surgeon said they tried finger joint replacement and it just doesn’t work. The joints don’t last, there’s too much stress on them and very little tissue cushion. I don’t think they can do anything for the sacroiliac.
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My wife is using a walker now. Regular one in the house and the rollator outside the house. Artificial hips, knees and one shoulder, back used from L3-S1 and C3-5 and new disc problems. She is in constant pain. Has two MRIs on Tuesday of her Thoracic spine and Cervical spine. Waiting to see ig insurance will approve a trial of a different Spinal Cord Stimulator, the first one did nothing.
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Hang in there Becky. It WILL get better.